The Day is Now

I debated posting about today being Valentine's Day. Part of me doesn't really want to acknowledge what I consider to be a holiday setup to remind people who are alone just how alone they are. I'm sure it's nice for people that are in love and like that sappy stuff, but when you have no one, you don't need a reminder every time you go to the store. It's been like this since January though so I suppose you get accustomed to it.

About the only thing I can try and do is just forget about the holiday and not worry about it. As much as I'd like to do that it seems really hard. All it does is remind me of that thing I really want but so far have found no way to get it. Having never been in a real relationship or even a early relationship at this time of year, I have never really experienced what Valentine's Day is all about.

I did get a Valentine's Day card from my grandparents. It was nice and unexpected so I guess it's not so bad. Sometimes I forget that I have family. I don't know why, but we are not a close family. Some of that could be my own fault but it's just not how we operate. I probably only see my brother 4 or 5 times a year and he lives in town. I do normally see my parent's once a week, but that's mainly because I go there to do my laundry. It's a sad fact but that's what it is.

I don't know why I'm posting about all this and what point I'm trying to make. I want to be happy and I am at times but I suppose there are times when being happy isn't worth the effort? I don't think that's what I'm trying to get at here. I think it just makes me remember how much other people can and do affect my life. How I sometimes wish things were different and that I had closer relationships with people. It scares me though, that I don't know what to do about it. I'm trying a lot harder now but I don't know if it's of any help.

I really do care a lot about other people and their feelings but I haven't found a way to show it. Interacting with other people is a lot easier for me now then it used to be but I still have a lot to work on.

I didn't come here intending to post all this but that's what happened. For those of you who enjoy it, enjoy your Valentine's Day. For the rest of you, well, good luck in life and keep yer chin up.

XP Nation

Everyone here at the library is running Windows 2000 on their computers. Everyone now, except me. We will be upgrading to XP this summer so I decided to push the envelope, as it were, and go with it today. Some very minor issues, one being with the network card, but all is fixed and well now. I'm just used to WinXP since I've been using it now for quite awhile.

In other news, Win2k source code is out in the hands of who knows who now. I wonder what the aftermath of this leak is going to be. I'm not against people knowing the back end of software but I am against it being exploited and causing me many headaches and more work.

I really wish it was 4 because I would love to go get my package and go home. I have ST tonight so that should be fun and C-bob and I are supposed to go see The Miracle. It's about hockey, it has to be to good.

I sold my old 30 gig harddrive today for $30.

Peace!

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Sobe

I drank something this afternoon called "adrenaline rush" and I'm really hyper. I'm also hungry but luckily I'm working on making dinner.

I have nothing important to say so I'm going to make this short.

Later kidz!

Skool is Kool

I don't think there is going to be a Vol 2 or beyond of the best of's because, to be honest, I was getting tired of pawing through the archives. There's a link above, so if you really want to know.. clicky clicky!

So for a long time I have been saying that I want to go back to school. The biggest problem has been that I didn't know what I wanted to do. For awhile I figured English would work, but in the prep work for that I kind of fell out of favor with it. Finally in the last couple weeks I have made a decision and I put the ball into play this morning. I am going to go back to school and get a bachelor's in psychology.

With my past degree I should have enough credit that it may only take 9 classes to get this done. I have credit in all the non-core classes so it's just a matter of getting applied and taking the classes. Since I work full-time at the University, they will cover the tuition costs. I just have to pay for books and fees. I submitted my application today so now it's just a matter of waiting. I can't see any reason why I wouldn't be readmitted. Then I just have to wait for the allocation period for the scholarship fund and I can get going.

I want to take the intro class independent this summer. I don't like independent classes but this is really my only option. I have to get this class taken before I can take any more and I really want to take two in the fall, if I can figure it out with my schedule.

Once I get readmitted I plan on talking to an advisor about what classes I have to take and getting a plan worked out.

Oh and in case you are wondering, why another bachelor's, it's so I can do graduate work in psychology. Most programs I have seen want you to have undergraduate work in psychology.

My main interests are sports and motivational psychology as well as neuroscience. I think it's interesting to look at why people do things and how people can both positively and negatively affect their own lives. I just like studying other people's behavior so this seems like a step in the right direction.

Oh and one more note: MercX is up and running again! Yay! This poor computer has been through a lot but it keeps on ticking. It's Built - MercTough : To the Core.

Best of Quarkstar Comments - Vol 1

I figure what with this being the one year anniversary of this blog I would do a "greatest entries" kind of post. I'm going to pull back through the archives and bring you some stuff from the past... ooo..

Feb 9, 2003 - The First Post: This is where I, GopherDylan, plan to make random comments about my life... what I'm doing, what I have for lunch.. what's on TV.. stuff like that...

Currently watching Much Music USA (woo) but it's IMX which is a dumb show.....

I need something to drink

March 13, 2003 - Guy Downstairs Final Update: So I think the guy is actually gone now. He has not been around for a long time. It's weird to not have anyone to stalk... but I guess I have internet now, so that's ok.

April 19, 2003 - Visiting Preppy Walmart: ...we drove all the way out to the new "preppy" wal-mart. This place is huge, and scary. Why would anyone want to shop in a store that big?? I was scared, but I hadn't been there yet, and the car seemed to want to go there, so that is where we went. It wasn't that bad, it is a lot cleaner then "ghetto" wal-mart, and stuff isn't piled all over the place, but it's still a wal-mart. We didn't buy anything and drove back.

June 26, 2003 - I'm a Quitter: So I figure now is the time to go ahead and post the news I have been hoarding for the past week and a half. Actually, most people already know this, but I have not officially posted it in the blog yet.

As of July 11th, I will no longer be the Help Desk Manager for CBA ITS. Yep, I quit my job.

July 2, 2003 - The Taco Delema: Issue: I want tacos.
Problem: Very hot out, many people getting tacos now, tacos will not come to me.
Solutions: a. Complain and go to bed, tacoless. b. Go get the tacos.

Decision: I guess, b.

August 6, 2003 - Saltdogs!: So I'm sitting in the living room playing Final Fantasy when the phone rings. I get up fully expecting it to be another telemarketer but instead it's my brother. "Do you want to go to the Saltdog's tonight?" he asks. I quickly IM C-bob
Me: Saltdogs?
C-Bob: Tonight?
Me: Yea, bro's tickets
C-Bob: Hellz Yea!

So I tell him, "Yea, we'll take the tickets."

1 Year

Woo!

*confette*

Happy One Year Anniversary Blog!

*passes out cake and punch*