Days Blur

It's Saturday, I know this, I looked it up. It's odd to think that tomorrow I will 26 years old. I know that this is not actually old, but it's older than I have ever been, so... (I love logic like that, btw). I'm actually not feeling too bad about it. I get to spend the day with some of my friends, get some free food and get to see the baseball game. Overall the day should be quite nice and different from the usual quiet that has been my birthday for many years.

I really need to get moving around today and do something, I have been doing a lot of nothing recently and while that has been interesting and relaxing, it's not going to be good for the long run. I need to go get food or something at some point this afternoon, I'm starting to get hungry but am low on groceries. I ate creamed corn for breakfast because that was the easiest thing to fix and it was either that or peaches. I'm not complaining, I'm just stating facts. I have been saying for the past few days I need to get at lease some milk or something, but I just don't do it. It's not like I have anything else to do really, but I just put it off.

Of course I am going to the baseball game tonight, so that's something to look forward to. I realized today that I really am getting into the game when I was talking to my mom. I started talking all about the games, the people there but also about the game play itself. Who was playing what position, about how Warner was pitching and stuff like that. I am actually getting into the baseball itself, and it's great. I forgot how much I actually like the sport of baseball. I remember we went to a cubs game and got really bored, I wonder if I would feel the same way if I went now.

It's interesting how out of touch I am with my own family. Apparently my dad has been sick for over a week and had to go to the doctor and everything. This is not information that's really shared though, not sure why. It makes me wonder if I am going to have to become more watchful of them as they get older. It's crazy but I think about that sometimes now. They are not super old or anything, but they aren't really young either. I just wonder when the table really starts turning and we end up having to take care of them, instead of the other way around. I guess this means I should probably call or email them more. Probably email, because I can never seem to get my mom off the phone without nearly hanging up sometimes.

Well, I need to go get some things done, I hope you all have a wonderful Saturday!

Friday night update..

So I hardly need to mention what I did tonight, but I am going to anyway. Any guesses what GD did tonight??

That's right... BASEBALL!!

There are only two more home games left this season, tomorrow night and Sunday, so of course I am going to both. Sunday will be a bit odd because we won't be sitting in the seats, but rather in the berm. But at least we get to see them play and what not.

The game tonight wasn't bad. They won 3-0 but there could have been more hits, I think. There was a nice homerun by Warner and JP almost got a homerun but it feel just short and hit the fence. He did get a nice triple and an RBI out of the deal though. Ford was back pitching and that was awesome. He hasn't been pitching in quite awhile so it was good to have him back on the mound. People really cheered for him when they switched pitchers near the end of the game.

After the game C-bob and I went to IHOP and had some food. I had a club sandwich with fries, that was good and satisfying. I was getting pretty hungry by then. After that we came back home and a bit ago I went and got the mail. I got three packages and a magazine, pretty good haul for me considering I don't get mail that often and what I do get is usually bills.

The birthday is coming up on Sunday, I'm pretty excited. I always love my birthday, it's just something that I will always enjoy.

List making...

So I have been wandering around looking at random Blogs today, bookmarking those that I may want to check on again later. I ran across this one blog where she had listed 100 things about herself. Normally I don't get into these little blog interview things but this one really struck me. So I pulled out my new yellow notebook and started to make my list. I am up to number 95 but felt like blogging a bit instead. Give my brain a little rest from thinking about things to list. I'm not sure how best to post my list because all 100 at once will be way too long to put into one post. I will probably break it down into 10 a day from the list. That will at least give me something to post for 10 days that isn't about baseball.

I am hoping that this list making will help me get back into writing again. It's something I truly want to do and I need something to push me into that direction. I love come up with story ideas and characters in my mind, I just need to get them down on paper before I forget them. I really do love to tell a story.

I better get back to the list, only 5 more to go, would be bad if I gave up now.

My evening...

Plans can change quickly in my life, and I am growing accustom to them. So instead of doing what I had originally planned to be doing, plans canceled by someone else mind you, I was able to go to yet another Saltdogs game. I am completely addicted now. Saltdogs!!

We sat in different seats tonight, right behind home plate. While it was cool and all to see the game play out from that angle, I still prefer the seats by the third base line. From there you get to see the players enter and leave the field and it's a good spot to watch the warm up from. We will be sitting there the next two nights. Man, so much baseball, it's so great. I am going to miss it a lot when it's gone and I don't have anything left to look forward to. At least baseball has been a nice distraction for me.

So they finally won tonight, and that was great. It wasn't exactly and exceptional game but Smitty had some nice hits and JP made a pretty good catch, complete with falling over and almost losing the ball. It wasn't that he caught it and then fell over, it was the diving act of catching it that got it. Eddy finally seemed to be playing shortstop tonight and the team all together seemed back into it. Too bad BW couldn't get much hitting going, he's usually a power hitter.

We had a really obnoxious kid and family behind us tonight. It's really to traumatic to write about, but man, it was horrible at times. I will be happy to be back safe in our regular seats tomorrow. Only 3 more games, it's kind of sad really.

After the game we went to the mexican place and then came home. Now I am sitting here, thinking about baseball.

Oh and just for C-bob: JP was in the dugout way too much tonight.... don't you think?

Baseball!!

Went to the game again tonight, I really love baseball right now. I think it's probably the single most important thing in my life right now. I know that sounds really sad, but seriously, it's so awesome. They lost again to Fargo tonight but the game overall wasn't as bad as last night.

The people sitting around us were the most traumatic part though. It started when people with two small kids, about 4 years old, sat behind us. And the mom had to explain everything to the kid is this awful "talking down to my kids" type voice. I've never liked that voice and can tell you, it's not necessary. I used to teach pre-school and really, you can talk to kids in a normal voice, they aren't going to listen anyway, trust me. Then not long after that, right in front of us came two more people with two little kids that were probably 3 years old at most and they talked over the game the whole time. They weren't even watching the game and really didn't watch the kids all that much. We think they were on a date with their kids, it was strange. I was glad when they finally left, but it was after 9, don't kids go to bed any more?

The weird thing of the evening was in the last inning when they put first baseman Bryan Warner in to pitch. He actually did a pretty good job and it got the crowd back into the game. The inning before they got 4 runs and were almost in rally stance. But the couldn't hold it and lost out in the end 11-6. JP moved from third base to first base when Warner pitched, so it was kind of odd to not have him right there in front of us like we are used to. The guy covering third, John Rodgers, he caught the ball and got an out or something, he had the ball anyway, and he went to toss it to the shortstop. This was after the play was over but they toss the ball around infield after good plays, only the shortstop wasn't ready for that and didn't catch it and it rolled into the outfield. It was funny in a way, because here's the new guy trying to play along, but failing.

I got a new visor and shirt at the game tonight. I am way more into this then I ever thought I would get, but really, it's a ton of fun. After the game C-bob and I went and got tacos, I was really hungry by then. Only 4 more home games left, and I'm going to 3 of them. Go Saltdogs!!

Motivation

I knew this would be a problem from the get go. I am not a very motivating person, at least not to myself. There are things I want to do or should be doing, but somehow I don't force myself to do them. I'm not looking for pity or anything, I am simply just stating some facts I have noticed the last few days. I have to find whatever it is that will motivate me and get going.

I think the only thing that will work is force. I have to force myself to get started and once I'm going, everything will work out. I need to get into a routine, something better than sleep all day, then stare at the computer all afternoon complaining to myself that I'm bored. I have all the tools I need now, I just have to kick myself until I do it.

I should be writing everyday, I should have pages of first draft type stuff done by now. I should have my notebook filled with as much writing as I can handle. It doesn't have to be good writing, it just has to be writing, of any kind. I read a book this week that made me realize that if you get so worried about writing while you are doing it, you won't ever be happy with what you have. Even if I have to cut out six-thousand pages of meaningless writing to get a good solid story, that's what I should be doing. Maybe I will have to use this the blog to post my progress so that I at least have something to be accountable to. I should have goals too, like x amount of writing in a day, or so many pages or something. Once I figure that out, I will post my goals and try my best to stick up to them. It's the only way I am going to get started.

Sad..

The Saltdogs lost both games tonight. It was like they didn't even have it in them to play. It's so sad to see your favorite team lose because they just didn't seem to be trying. There were a lot of mistakes and just a general lack of energy on the whole team. The other team didn't even play that well, but they still won. The guys looked pretty down after the end of the second game. I hate to see them lose, I wish they could win every game. Oh well, hopefully they will be back in form tomorrow night. They really need to win games now if they want to be in the playoffs.

Baseball!!

Had to post again, cuz the blog seems messed up. GO SALTDOGS!!!

Things are looking up..

The weather seems to have cleared off and the currently developing rain seems to be safely south of here a bit. We may very well see some great baseball tonight. It will be odd sitting in different seats, but it won't matter that much, as long as we can see the game. It is really hot though and super humid. 95 degrees with a heat index of 105. It's icky but as long as there is no rain, it's all good.

Needed: One Ark

So it's still raining here with storms on and off and has been since last night. It seems that the system is sticking around for a bit and dumping some rain on us. I shouldn't complain since we probably can really use this rain, but still, I can complain if I want to. The forecast seems to predict that it's going to just keep on raining all day and all night, on and off anyway.

What about baseball?? Doesn't anyone want to see baseball?? Last night's game was rained out so they are playing two 7-inning games tonight. These are important games for Lincoln because it will really affect their league standings. If they win four more games, two against Fargo (who the play tonight), they become number one in the league. That would mean they would move from the bottom of the league to the top to end the season and that would be awesome. So the game starts at 6:05 tonight, and we have to go exchange our tickets for other tickets to the game. Not sure what time we will be able to get down there, but not until after C-bob gets off work and gets home.

I am awake way to early for someone that doesn't need to be awake. For some reason I just can't get to sleep and now I'm getting a bit hungry. I'll probably crawl back into bed for a bit though, nothing much else to do right now.

Stupid Rain..

No game tonight.. *sigh*

C-bob is here, being a gimp. You big gimp.

Anyway..... so we are going to watch Field of Dreams instead. And cry.

Weather..

It's storming right now with rain and lightning, the whole bit. I really hope it passes soon, because I'm planning on going to the Saltdogs game tonight. They may still be able to play with a late start, not sure yet. Just waiting to hear what's going on.

Awake

Nothing really to important to post other than I am awake. I should probably attempt to do something productive today, like clean up or something. It's still weird to have no obligations like work. I guess I thought it would feel differently, but everything feels normal, it's just I don't have to get up at 6:30 any more. Actually, I think my body still wants to get up earlier than needed just because it's not used to getting to sleep in everyday. Oh well, with time it'll all get sorted out.

Warning.. complaining below...

So I thought I took the precautions to avoid sunburn and other heat related issues, but I was wrong. I forgot about my head, I really should have worn a hat. So now my head hurts, my neck's a little stiff and I'm just not feeling all that well. I took some Alvee and put some ice on my head. I'm also getting a bit of a heat rash. I'm telling you though, for all this it was still totally worth going to the game.

The reason this was a problem tonight and not other nights is that Sunday games start at 5:05 PM and our side of the stadium is still in full sun. Something I have to consider for next week, maybe I will get a Saltdogs hat or something. Ah well, maybe I'll try and get some sleep or something.

I'm a dork..

but you guys already know that.

Went to see the Saltdogs again tonight and they won, yeah! But it was really hot, game start temp was 102 degrees and we were sitting in the sun for about 2 hrs. The game itself lasted 3 hrs and was uneventful and eventful at the same time. They did a lot of little game things, because it was family night. The only interesting thing that really stands out was the last pitch of the game. Or what should have been the last pitch.

There are 2 balls and 2 strikes on the batter. The pitcher pitches the ball, it barrels towards the batter, he swings and misses, meaning he should have been out, right? Well the catcher didn't get a hold on the ball and it slammed into the knee of the umpire. He was in major pain and didn't make a call on the play. They finally had to drive him off the field, his knee was pretty smashed up, I'm guessing. So then they had to take a lot of time to get another umpire to come out so the batter could bat again. BTW, there were already 2 outs for the inning and it with one more out the game was over and the dogs would win. So the other umpire comes out after about 15 minutes, the pitcher pitches once, batter swings and misses and the game is over.

I guess the one other interesting thing was that one of the manager/coaches for our team got thrown out of the game for arguing with the umpire, the same umpire that got nailed up above.

The top and back of my head are sunburned and don't feel so great right now. I'm not sure what I can really do to make it feel better, so I guess I will just suffer. I should really learn to wear hats, oh well.

On another note, it's weird to get upset about something and find out later that it wasn't what you thought. Not that you can do anything about the feelings at the time, but it does teach you to give the benefit of doubt to the people you trust. Lesson learned, everything should be alright now.

Pepperjack

Why have I not been eating pepperjack cheese my whole life?? This stuff is good! It has a slight bite to it but it really adds flavor to things. I really don't have anything else to say though, there is only so much you can say about cheese.

Going to the Salt Dog's tonight, that should be awesome. I keep forgetting that I don't have weekdays anymore so I don't have to worry about cramming stuff in on Sundays and what not. I told C-bob last night that for me now, everyday is a weekend. It will be nice for awhile, but I figure I'm going to get restless so I better find something to occupy my time and maybe make a bit of money at the same time.

I also realized that I have some great friends and just how important they are in my life. In the end, I think it's more important to have quality friends around then to go for quantity. I'd rather have a small group to hang out with all the time than have lots of 'friends' I barely know.

Safe at home..

Went downtown with the crew tonight, Susan, Nick, Sheri, Tony and C-bob. We hit about 5 places and had a pretty good time. At one place, Iguana's, we got Bomb Pop drinks that looked like those bomb pop frozen treats and they had glow bracelets in them. That was pretty cool and the drinks weren't that bad. We ended up spending most of the evening at BW3s drinking and playing trivia. It was a pretty good end to the night I think.

Other things didn't happen that were supposed to but I really don't want to talk about it. I'm just wondering if certain things are even worth the effort any more, I am basically ready to just give up. Oh well.

Well, I'm pretty tired, so I think I shall close now. Night!