Unknown...

I am full of unknown. Mainly I do not know what tomorrow will bring. I would like to go back to work, but my energy level is still quite low. I have trouble sleeping that I figure is somehow related. So basically I'm really tired, but awake. I have my laptop hooked up and online, so right now I am laying in bed typing this. It is a nice thing to have, I suppose. Maybe it is distracting me from resting, even though I feel like I am resting. I am very restless and out of sorts with the world though. I really don't like being on the sidelines, I want to get back in, the sooner the better. The pain and pressure in my head makes my eyes water, I just wish it would go away. I think I can probably make it to work, but I'm not sure what good I would be once I got there. I just don't know if I can handle either one, but I have to decide at some point. I need to wean myself from the drugs though, before they become more of a problem. They don't really help anymore anyway, so what's the point of taking them? (I don't mean the antibiotics, btw, I will keep taking those, not taking those would be idiotic on my part). I think I will wait and see how I feel in the morning before making a decision. It is odd to me how I can seem so well and normal in type, but if I were to try and talk about stuff, this would not be working. I think since with type I can take more time to think it out, then it works better. I have problems processing things I read though, but I just read the again and sometimes it will click. Hard to do that when someone is talking to you. What this means is that for work, answering help desk questions over the phone would be taxing for me and probably not helpful for the client.

It comes down to one simple thing, my health has to come first. I have to force myself to realize that and not push too much too soon and have problems because of it.

On a different note, Eric at work is going to be a father soon. His wife was due May 1 but they are going to induce labor early as there were minor complications and the baby was at full term. So by midnight tomorrow he should be a brand new father. I wish them all the best.

Peace.